Another day passes by. The changes, the steps I’m taking to take me somewhere other than the here I’m at are in active motion…. All I need to do is grit my teeth, set my jaw and continue. “Go, Emma. Go!” Urge myself on as I would a friend or loved one. Love myself enough to want more for me. Change is hard. It’s scary. And right now, it won’t be immediate. Twiddle my thumbs. Clasp my fingers and twirl my thumbs like the computer teacher taught the class to do in 4th grade while we waited for the Apple computers tiny green screens to blip on so we could play Oregon Trail in 1987. Aaaand reverse…… A tiny lesson in patience… Every atom of my being is seeking out all my knowledge on that subject. Christians revere patience as one of the most valuable traits of life. The Talmud of Judaism extols patience as an important personality trait. It is the same in Hebrew and Islamic beliefs. Billions of people every minute of every day of every year struggle with this. I just close my eyes. Picture that huge monitor, with the tiny green screen. My fingers are clasped. Aaaaaand twirl my thumbs.